Too much to handle?

Sometimes I wonder why I don't find the things that interest me so much in the past interesting anymore...

Like preferring to walk around the mall alone while indulging in my new found fav - moo cow instead of going out with a bunch of friends...

Like preferring to just sit at a corner and observe and listen to people's conversation instead of jumping up and down and being the loudest in the group...

Like just giving a smile instead of striking a conversation when I see long lost friends/meet new people..

I seem to enjoy the quiet, peace and me time more nowadays...

Crap..I think I'm becoming more boring!! o.0

*GULP*

But then again..all these "me" time's got my brain working more..

Like just thinking of the future..

And some other unrealistic thinking of what ifs..

Or just plain reminiscing the past...

And I realize..as awful as my high school life was...

Bitch fights, betrayal, boy friend stealing, backstabbing, hurting people and getting fair share of hurts myself...

I wouldn't change a thing about my high school life..

At least it is through all those I realize that jealousy exists...

And that it is just that hard to maintain a BFF relationship with a straight guy...

Because either they will fall for you, or you will fall for them...

Or You get a boyf and stop talking to them just cause your guy don't like it...

Or the worst part...Them getting a girlf who sees you as a threat for god knows what reason and forbid their boyfs from seeing you...

I aslo found out how dangerous jealousy can be..

Like when you start being close to a guy..

And a senior who knows him 1st has a huge crush on him..

This thing called rumors about you will just linger in every air particle available..

Then the next thing you know it..everyone knows you...

When the best part is you are just a 13 year old who has been growing up with 2 male cousins and a brother..

And that majority of your BFFs in primary school are guys which makes you more comfortable around guys...

But then hormones kicked in...

And you became the one scheming..

I had my fair share of evil days...

It was fun while it lasts...

Then Karma struck..

2nd and 3rd year of high school was hell..

Somehow everyone was just out there to get you..

My best friend in form one was my arch enemy...

But then Year 4 came..

And somehow things just got better..=)

Guess we all got pass all the schemings and manipulating...

And now..just like Blair and Serena...

My BFF who was also my arch nemesis is my BFF again...lol..

Kinda funny how life would bring you one whole round just to sort of get you back to square one...

Maybe I might not be rich and famous or mega smart...

But I just know that my life has been well spent..

At least I had all these ups and downs to look back on and smile...

And all those lessons learnt..

Best part would be finding my dearest BFF sisters who I might add never did like me...

All 5 of them had their moments..

Right??

Jenny Chan, Crystal Chow, Linda Thee, Szetoo Weishya & Guan Yy Ling??

Hmmm..maybe I could write a story about my life...

And maybe get it made into a movie...

With some vampires or hybrids twist to it...

Haha..okay..I'm starting to crap now...

Sue me...=p

Anyway..realistic updates..

Finals is in 10 days...

4 papers stretched to TWO weeks...

Owh well..

At least I have in betweens to study!! =DD

Till the next time when I suddenly just open blogger.com and let my brain just processes random memories/thoughts while I let my fingers dance..=)

Smilez..=D