Blogger, I'm scared...
Well, why else would I be here again..
You have always been an outlet for me to just rant and release my thoughts..
Well other than those times where I was blogging just cause everyone else was..
I have facebook and instagram to do those for me now..
But right now..
They said I'm not good enough..
That I need to grow up..
But what if it's not enough??
I know I know..
I should think of the positive side...
That I should be confident that I can..
Cause I'm Carmen Kong..
I can do anything...
Every bad thing always magically disappear..
This one would too..
With some efforts of course..
It's just so scary to know I could just lose things now..
To know that all these while..
I've just been spoonfed and protected...
That I don't need effort..
But now..It's real..
Everything is real..
The chances of losing..
Failure could be real...
I sure don't want that...
And I'm working towards that..
But why do I feel it's not enough??
Like I wouldn't have enough time??
And I could just make mistakes without me even realizing..
Like I always do..
Am I really so stupid??
Am I really just a bimbo??
Okay...now that all those are out..
I can think clearly now..
Time to alter my thoughts into the positive ones..
Let the positive ones take over..
I'm a scorpion..I'm a horse..
Deadly..Fast..Strong and unbeatable..
These things can't hurt me...
Think of Blair Waldorf...
The ones who cares the most are the ones who created those obstacles for her..
And in the end, she survived all those backstabs, gossips, heartbreaks and still rise as queen and married her true love with true friends and family who cares...
I believe I can do this..
I am meant to achieve greatness..
And I will achieve greatness!!
Till next time,